put a fork in me, i'm done.

I don't know why I keep putting myself through this pain and frustration, so I've decided that I'm done, I'm giving up. I know technically quitters are losers (except if you're trying to give up smoking or something like that), but trust me on this one, I'm better off. And if I capitulate on this, I'm just more pathetic than before.

Jesus is all that I need. Now if only I could live out that truth.

Free (Take My Life)

Take my life, make it clay
Shape this life in intricate ways
I want to be, a child of faith
But what my heart wants most my body turns away

I push away Your ways and wonder why
I let my pride decide every time

But I can't wait to be free
From this life of mindless sin
That compromises me
I know one day I will be
There is a victory that You've won for me
That when You come back again
I'll be free

Turn my eyes to Your face
Let me draw from Your strength, and bathe in Your grace
Let me soar with wings to win the race
And let me have Your peace, it's not a hopeless chase

'Cause I lose sight of all You've called me to be
And it takes so much to drive me to my knees

Free (Take My Life) - Jill Paquette

back to the beginning

Been writing and rewriting the same paragraph for about 30 minutes now, but eventually deleted it all and just decided to go with this:

I'm starting over.